I think I can string together a few cohesive sentences to explain why I’ve taken on a new method and vehicle for capturing images.
Fuji announced late last year that they plan on discontinuing their black and white peel apart film; I was devastated. I’d just been given a beautiful Polaroid 250 and I mainly started shooting the peel apart film for the sole reason that Fuji offered a gorgeous black and white option. I went through the whole mourning process: heartbreak, sadness then frustration.
About a month ago, I started to think: Why can’t I just go back to developing my own black and white film like when I was in college? Maybe it’s better to go back to the very roots that fed my passion for photography in the first place.I doubt 35mm will be discontinued anytime soon. I already knew how to do it and what was needed to take on this new project. And the only true film processing equipment I needed was a daylight development tank and fixer. I planned on using caffenol as the developer because, well, I usually like to take the most difficult route and less chemicals.
The new challenge of taking 35mm (and 120) images and also processing my own film enables me to to continue on with photography without the stress or worry of the film being discontinued. Because, unfortunately, it seems with the instant films, companies decide to no longer produce them due to slighted revenues. So, for the instant film companies that work hard to continue (Impossible Project, Fuji Instax) I hope they go strong and keep making their films. And I will continue to shoot instant film, it’s just no longer my only option for shooting and no longer am I only married to instant film.
I am now a film polygamist and happy.